Yesterday, I turned 25 and it hit me that my age no longer rounds down to 20 but to 30 EEEEK! When you are a child all you ever wanted to do was act older, because being a child was just that horrible. I mean footsie pajamas, cartoons, thinking there little people inside of the radio speakers putting music on in the car, and lame sitcoms consumed most of my days. Pretty terrible huh? Than you turn into a teenager, a hormone raged, insecure angry version of your once adorable self. You have no identity yet so you try and form one but its difficult, because you want to be an individual yet you want to fit in. You want the perfect body, the perfect boyfriend, the best grades and to be voted best hair. It became quite easy to resent the people that actually possessed these traits, perpetuating you to feel some teenage angst towards these “perfect” people.
You know what I wish I could have told my teenage self? Who you are in high school does not define who you are as a human being. There were peers I despised, I mean would have loved to punch them in the face and break their nose because they were either rude, or flat out annoyed me. Many of them grew up and evolved into great adults. Good for them.
Amy Pohler posts videos on YouTube giving people advice- one video was dedicated to jealousy, and how in the beginning you need to accept the fact that you are jealous of someone. Than she goes on to explain that you cannot succeed in life by hating on others success, and she is right. She said we should be happy for one another. Now I know there are some people I will never be happy for, and unfortunately sometimes I go snooping at their Facebook accounts and laugh at their lame lives, because I consider them mediocre. Somehow they morphed into an average fat American, with a few drooling babies, and a job. I smile to myself because I knew that lame face when they were attractive, arrogant and rude.
I am 25 now, this is a foolish way to think. Pohler made me realize that in order for me to accomplish my goals, I must feel happy for people and not duel on the past. This year I am going to meet ALL of my damn goals. 1: Finish my first Young Adult book 2. Get an article published on the Huffington Post 3. Get into Law School 4. Make better YouTube videos! 6. Get into excellent shape, instagram has inspired me to work out and eat healthier! What are your goals?
*I do not own the image below thought it was funny because it correlates with the topic of jealousy.